25

I found out that there is a website that you can send in your blog, and have it put into a book. Since I am not a great journal keeper I think it would be interesting to do that. So I don't really care if anyone reads it. I am just writing as much as I can, so it can be like a journal book some day.

Anyways I am 7 minutes away from being 25 years old. I say that not to announce to everyone that it's my birthday, but because turning 25 has really made me think about some things.

I am a truly blessed woman, in the past few years I have learned what is important in my life. Surprisingly it is not what I thought it would be when I knew it all back when I was 16. I found out that the love of my life is not a blond guy with stunning blue eyes. He is a tall, dark and handsome Spaniard that I met when I was 18. I found out that I will aways take exactly one hour to get ready at the LEAST. I love trying to look my best, though sometimes my best is not good enough for me.

I found out that I LOVE being pregnant, and I love my children. I cannot even remember or imagine life without them. I have made some really dumb choices in my life that have led me to much heart ache, and though I wish I could keep other people from making those mistakes. I CAN'T. I just recently realize that I am my worst enemy, but still can't do anything about that. I have so much to learn still, but I just want to teach. Teach my kids that they have loving parents who have worked really hard to get them here. I try not to take for granted of the time I have with them. That is why I "nuggle" with both of them for nap time and night time. I know sometimes that turns out to be a pain, because of all the things I have to do. But you know what... The house will always be there to be cleaned, they made drive through for a reason. But kids are only little for a short period of time, and than they will be gone. Live their lives, have their kids. And I will be here cleaning and cooking.

I also know that life has it's priorities, and as much as I love my children I have to love who gave them to me even more. God has entrusted them to me, so that I can take care of them. I love Him for it. And secondly my husband, who works so hard and sacrifices so much. Just so that I can be home teaching them, and taking care of them. Sometimes I feel a little down about myself, because the world now makes me feel less of what I am. I don't have a degree, and I don't have any desire of getting one. Not because I am dumb and can't do it, though Satan tries to convince me of that. But because I just don't want to wake up one morning, and see that I missed the best thing in life.

Not to offend anyone who works, that may be what you want to do. I also know that some people cannot stay home at the moment, and that is why I am so grateful that I can. We may not be able to get the boat, or the luxurious things in life. But to me it is so worth it. I realize that friends are hard to find, and that my mom has and will always be one of my best friends. I found out that being away from my family is harder than I thought it would be. I regret that I tried to grow up too fast, but do NOT regret getting married young. I have seen too many people go crazy after they turn 18, and got a little bit of freedom. I believe that I am who I am today because of the choices I made, I am so glad that I was raised in a manner that even though I made bad choices, I was never allowed to make them so bad that it altered or damaged my plan for an Eternal marriage.

I know that families are forever, and not until death comes along. I know now that I am raising my kids much like I was raised. I am thankful for the example that my parents are, showing me that it is possible to make a marriage work. When the world now does not even believe in marriage anymore. I am not afraid of speaking my mind, and that is a gift and a curse at the same time. I love having fun, I do NOT miss high school. But I miss not having responsibilities some times. I wish I had listen to my parents when they told me life was easy back then. I only kissed 4 guys in my life and that was 3 too many.

I love to spend time with my husband, even if it's a little here and there when the kids are asleep. I love that he loves me. I love that he loves our kids, it is a shame that he will never know how good of a dad he really is. But I love him more because of it. Spencer tells me at least 10 times a day that he loves me, and I tell it back to him 2 times every time he does. I believe that if I do that he will always know that when ever he is in need of some love. All he has to do is show some love. I think it's working, i haven't seen another 3 year old tell his mom he loves her just because he felt like it. It saddens me to know sometimes that I am doing my best as their mother, but that they deserve so much more.

So I am one quarter of a century old, and even though that may not seam like a lot. I think I have come a long way, in my life's check list. I know there is so much more to be done, and so much that I don't know. So much that I need to work on. More kids to bring down to earth, and so much more heart aches. But I hope and pray that as I learn and go through these things that I will be molded to what my Heavenly Father wants me to be.

I know that God lives, he is my foundation and the center of our home. I am not in any way, shape, or form, close to doing all that I should be doing. But I am grateful that Christ came to earth and died for me, and is willing to come through for me in the areas that I lack. As long as I endure it to the end. I love my religion, and I am not ashamed of it. It also played a major role as to who I am today. I know I am a daughter of God, and that he loves me. And even though to the world I am not "worth" much, because I am "just" a mother. I am all that I wanted to be, from the time I was a little girl. And even more important I am worth more in the eyes of God, being a mother is being selfless, giving up time, or postponing my own life because of the role that I took when I gave birth.

So I am 25, I am a woman, a mother, a sister, a daughter, a wife. And I LOVE being every one of those.

Stephanie NO!

HUM!!! Should we say SPOILED... We are in so much trouble.

Continuation....

My Beautiful Family

Me and My Honey

Don't Ask

Restoring the Gospel

After a long FUN day

Yep He did it.

Playing in our Hotel in FL

Playing or FIGHTING?

The view from the Hotel...

Spencer Learned how to swim under water.

I love this little man.

Playing Mini Golf. HE LOVED IT

Our Little Hike in the Smokey Mountains

He was SOOOO scared of the hole.

First Time on a Go Cart

Another thing that he LOVES

The good thing about being a boy, you can "go" anywhere.

So that has been our summer, full of fun, and new things. We are looking forward to a beautiful fall and doing all the fun things that come along with it. The leaves are starting to turn, Let the cool weather begin.

Summer 09

First Time in a swing.

First Carrots

Gatlinburg

First Night in Her Crib

Mommy playing with camera and baby

WOW

It's been so long and so much has gone on, the pictures take for ever to load. The truth is I have been too lazy to catch up. Here is what we have been up to this summer. To be Continued....

You Said WHAT?!?

Okay so last week I was laughing really hard at something Diane told me that Tyler said. I will not share it in case she does not want me to. But only 2 or 3 days later Spencer says something that was just as funny but the opposite of Tyler's problem. We were out eating somewhere when Spencer informed me ( and the entire restaurant ) that he had to Poop... So we finished eating and took a trip to the potty.
After sitting in the toilet for about a min. I asked if he was done, knowing that he had done absolutely NOTHING. He answered by saying. "NOPE, I think my BUTT is brocken, its not working right now." Who needs comedians when you have a 3 year old?

Well!!! an update on our lives, we are in Florida AGAIN. For one more week, than I go back and Borja comes down again for another week. Spencer has been asking me for the past month when will he go to school. SO after thinking a lot and checking my options, we enrolled him in pre-school. He will only go 2 days a week, I could not handle more than that. He was SOOOO excited when we went in and I was signing him up, he got to meet his teacher and play there while I filled paper works. That night daddy decided he wanted to go and help pick out a backpack and a lunch box, and whatever else we need for it. So we have SPIDER MAN EVERYTHING. What a surprize. He was so excited to come home and put everything in it. He also told me to pack a lot of food in his lunch box so he could share it with all his friends. HUM!!! I wonder if he will do that? and I don't think it's going to go very well. I am excited to see him going. He REALLY needs that interaction with kids. MOPS just isn't enough. And I will be able to go Grocery shopping and actually buy everything in my list, it should be a piece of cake with only one child. I am also saddened to see him go. I have a baby who is going to pre-school. Well I guess the key is to keep having more babies... Well we are also excited for sonethings that are comming up. Mexico in December, and our cruise in March. So no babies untill after that. Our summer has gone by so quickly, I will post pictures when I can.

4th of JULY

Like I said in the previous post, we are in Florida and spend the 4th here. I am glad the fireworks were not impressive in TN last year. Some pics of the kids that I took, on the 4th.

Florida....

Okay... So we have been in FL for 2 weeks now. My Dear Husband... Oh I must love that man. His little hobby is Flying, why could he not be happy with just scrap booking like me. Unless he is up in the air, blowing money away he is not happy. Anyways I am sick and tired of him getting so many licenses for flying. REALLY you have no idea how many and how much needs to be done, and when he does it all at the same time. ARGHHH I think only Lindsey knows how I feel. Anyways he had the option to get his Instructors licence little by little like he did with the others, or all at once. The little by little consists of driving to Huntsville, AL. A whole hour away, fly around for a little bit, drive back. 2 to 3 times a week. Well that got old after a year of doing that for all of the other ones... So I told him that I wanted him to do it all at once. AND JUST BE DONE WITH IT.... So here we are in FL, I am enjoying the beach and my family and friends. He is working harder than ever to get this thing done in 2 weeks. He told me it's the hardest thing he has ever done. EVEN harder than his Master Theses. WOW. Poor Guy... But it's what he wants. Out of all the things he got already... I am most excited about this one. IT'S about time other fools who like to blow money away started paying us to fly.. HAHAHA sorry if you are interested in learning how to fly. My council DON'T DO IT. But if you are going to do it. Borja is less than a day away from being an instructor, and we would love to have your money, I mean we teach you how to fly. HAHAHA J/K I love him, and I miss him. It's hard to be without him. I am very proud of who he is, and how hard he works towards everything he does. I know I said a lot of silly things, but I want him to know that I support him in everything, I like to see him happy. And he has showed me time and time again that he wants me happy as well. Hence he treats me like a princess, and goes beyond my needs to see me smile. I LOVE YOU HONEY. Okay here are some of the pics we took while daddy is killing himself over in Jacksonvile...








Stephanie Is Growing, and my milk is no longer enough. So I am suplementing with formula, but we also started to eat cereal. Not sure of it at first, but now she really likes it.